Showing posts with label Work It Out. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Work It Out. Show all posts

Monday, August 20, 2007

Dear God, make me a bird. So I could fly far...far far away from here.


Wow, I go from not blogging in months to 3 posts in one day. I'm not PMSing or anything, but I feel emotional. Ugh, my blog isn't even supposed to be all sappy & shit, it's supposed to be funny & sarcastic...cynical, even.

With a pep-talk from the Athletic Director at my j-o-b, I took my arse to the gym today to get back in the game. I walked the treadmill for 50 mins, then did some weights/strength training for a bit. I feel lightheaded, though, because I tried to read a magazine while walking. Boo. I feel all nauseous now. So much so that my ride home was terrible. I tried rolling the window down, but that made me feel worse. I thought I was going to throw up along the side of my car door, which reminded me of the last time I went out binge drinking a few months ago. That wasn't a good look...and I didn't feel like cleaning the side of my car (inside OR out) tonight. So, I chanted the famous line from Jenny Curran in Forrest Gump, Dear God, make me a bird. So I could fly far...far far away from here.
I don't know what made me to it...but it just came out. And I cracked up. That's not the first time I've said that, either. I think I said it earlier today, too. This post is really random, but hell, isn't that what a blog is for?
My momma always said, "Life was like a box of chocolates. You never know what you're gonna get." --Forrest Gump

Fuel to My Fire




Motivation is the push of the mental forces to accomplish an action. Unsatisfied needs motivate.
Motivation is the tendency to expend effort to achieve a goal
Motivation is the desire to accomplish a goal or participate in an endeavor.

I once had a motivation to lose weight & get in shape. I was on a roll! My self-steem boosted, my confidence boosted, I was reaping benefits, feeling good, etc. Then, my motivation changed. I started slacking for various reasons. Time, weather, people, etc. My eating habits changed. I tapped into the world of "emotional eating". I've been slipping for the past couple of months. But guess what?



You can look me in my eyes, see I'm ready for whatever
Anythang don't kill me, make me better


I'm getting back in the saddle. I'm getting back in the game. Damn the weather, damn everything, I'm getting back into it for ME.

Take my freedom for the moment but it ain't fo-ever
I got the spirit of a god, heart of a dope dealer


SO...I'm ready.